Divine Mother Eva { Motherhood Photo+Interviews } Surprise

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Divine-Mothering Photo+Interviews

{ Divine Mothers of August Session 2 }

{ Eva }

Surprise

I am a mother. I have been for 10 years. I have a step son and he grew in my heart, not my belly. We didn’t think we could have children and we were OK with that. I’m in my 30’s and my husband is about ready to retire and… Surprise! You’re pregnant. I cried first actually. I cried and I was upset. My husband came home and he found me in the bath tub. He asked what was wrong and I told him “I’m pregnant!?!”

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And then I thought, you know, so many things could go wrong. I got nervous. Maybe it’s not going to happen. But everything has been good. I feel very fortunate. I haven’t had morning sickness or anything like that. But now I’m 30 weeks pregnant and everything is becoming a pain in the butt. Everything hurts, but I have a feeling it’s all going to hurt a lot more soon.

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I had gone to two doctors. We have been married for 13 years and for about 8 of that we tried to have children. After 2 years we went the first doctor. That doctor said I have PCOS, but I went to get a second opinion. I don’t feel like I fit the profile for PCOS. People tend to be heavier and hairier. I do have a cyst though… So we went to the second doctor and he agreed. “No, you don’t have PCOS, but something is wrong with you.” And he recommended that I try in vitro. And… I was not digging the whole hormone shots, the process of disappointment… I have a beautiful step son and a pug.

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And they were right. Nothing happened for another 2 years. Then I had a miscarriage. But it was… The development only went up to 6 weeks. So I don’t really consider that a loss. I just saw it as affirmation that my body can’t hold a pregnancy.

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I have a big cyst right here [ lower abdomen ], it’s the size of a chicken egg, but it doesn’t seem to be interfering with the pregnancy… And that’s that!

Eva, thank you so much for participating in this project and sharing part of your story with us. Your words deeply touched me, your strength and self acceptance is amazing. I wish you a beautiful healthy pregnancy, birth, and child. You’re amazing.

Repeat after me,

I am an amazing woman.

I am beautiful.

I am strong.

The light within me is divine.

Eva participated in Divine-Mothering Photo+Interviews of August Session 2, check out this blog post for more images of that session.

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Photography by Liliana Beatriz Fotografia

Eva is also an incredibly talented photographer, please check out her work here.

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Posted on: October 19, 2015, by : Lotus_Lili

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